It's hard to believe it's been 19 months since we were logged in to the CCAA. Amazing about how time flies, but I'd be lying if I said it's flown by and we've hardly noticed because we have. Each month without word, each update that suggests the wait is extending by months every month, every time we have to say to some well wisher, "no, we haven't heard anything yet" and each time we smile and encourage them that it's ok and reassure them that we're ok with it has been excruciatingly difficult.
I'd be lying if I said that every day of the last 19 months I've been 100% certain that God's timing was perfect and that every thing happens, or doesn't, for a reason, because I haven't been. This truly is the most difficult thing I've ever done. While I will never know what it's like to carry a child, and wait the 9 months for his/her birth I certainly do understand waiting, preparation, and the emotional highs and lows of expecting.
But, I do remain faithful and I do have LOTS of conversations with God. I do have assurance that this is in fact happening for reasons that I may never understand, but He does and that's comforting.
So... Father God, bless our daughter, that she be born healthy. Bless her mother, that she know peace and serenity in her decision. Bless all whose hands are in this process, that they have efficiency and expediency of task and Bless our family, as they wait with us, expectantly, patiently and lovingly. Amen.
Lisa
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