Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Month 51 and Some Ramblings

Been awhile since last I wrote. Haven't had much to say, in the way of the adoption, anyway. Those who know me, know I always have something to say :)

Wednesday, Nov. 3- we made the trip down to the area offices of immigration services and updated our 1-171H and were fingerprinted again. This renewal process secures the immigration status of an adopted child and ensures that upon arrival in the United States the abandoned orphan is declared a US citizen. Our appointment was at 8 and we were back in the car on our way home by 8:20. Is was great! We had a nice day together. Grabbed lunch, ate at a leisurely pace and then had dinner with my in-laws. It was a good day.

I'd like to think this is the last time we will do this...but we've been living this life for 51 months. I worry that I won't know how to live a life that isn't about waiting... what in the world am I going to do with a baby???? I'm sure I'll figure that out and I can name a few folks who would like nothing more than to tell me how to do it... solicited or not. But those of you who know me well, and love me anyway, know how well I take a lesson. ;)

I've been thinking a lot about the kind of young woman I hope our daughter grows up to be. Independent. Spirited. Intelligent. Kind. Willing and able to speak her mind. I hope she's able to draw boundaries so that no one, not a soul, treats her like a door mat. I want her to be able to say, "Mom, You're wrong and I disagree" when I am and she does. I want her to be able to follow her heart and not worry what the rest of the damn world thinks about it. I'd like her to be sensitive to others but not so sensitive herself. Sadly, I'd like her to know that there are some people, no matter how hard you try, who will never be satisfied. That might sound pessimistic but it's really not. Those people aren't worth her time. I also want her to know that no matter who it is... I will take down the person who tries to make her something she's not. So, enough said I suppose.

1 comment:

Wendi said...

Well, first of all, I really wish that you weren't STILL waiting! However, I know that God's timing is perfect (though what's up with the wait, God...51 months, seriously?!?! Can we move the Nehrigs to the top of the pile, please?), and I pray every week that he will guide your child home to you swiftly, safely, and soon. You're going to be GREAT parents, and the sooner you can get started, the better! ;)

Secondly, what a lucky little girl you will raise to have a Momma that is already so full of hopes and dreams and ideas about how to help her become the woman she is meant to be. There are people who have been parents for many years already who haven't even thought about and/or can't even begin to articulate what you already know.

I just can't wait to meet you little Miss and see her develop her own sense of sass and self! SOOO exciting!! What a journey, and what a story she will have to share as she grows!